i started to feeling confused. like seriously.
its not the 1st time i think like this, in fact, this happen to me all the time, feeling confused, not sure what am i supposed to do.
i don't mean to be a loser or what, just that sometimes when shits happen i just want to run away, as far as i can, just for the sake to calm down, and think what am i supposed to do for next step. Life is tough, i will that i can go back to my baby times, just drink milk, laugh, play, cry and sleep and repeat the routine until i started to learn how to speak.
its normal for human for can't remember what's happen before 3 years old. but somehow i wish i still remember, so whenever i am sad i am down, i can remember and think back that i used to have this worry-less childhood, not that striving for the sake to get compliment from anyone.
Lately my life is seriously treated me badly, so bad i really don't know how i should react. all these shits seems settled but its not, and its come back to me again and again, i started to wondering is that my life want to see me fall? i really don't know.
I'm scared, seriously worry what will happen next, i'm not even sure that i can deal with it at all. Keep breathing is all i know for now.
just keep,
breathing.