Friday, April 29, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
the 100th blog post YO!
see the title?? YES! this is my 100th post!!
Life goes on, nothing seems different, only the income tax shit drove me nut few days ago, and i accidentally drink the toilet water while fixing the toilet bowl, caused some chemical burn on my throat, flu, neneko having her period so have to take care of her so she wont running here and there and.. nvm.
i spoiled my laptop speaker.
and i cant wait for college reopen. MY GOODNESS i cant wait to go back to study!
Life goes on, nothing seems different, only the income tax shit drove me nut few days ago, and i accidentally drink the toilet water while fixing the toilet bowl, caused some chemical burn on my throat, flu, neneko having her period so have to take care of her so she wont running here and there and.. nvm.
i spoiled my laptop speaker.
and i cant wait for college reopen. MY GOODNESS i cant wait to go back to study!
Friday, April 15, 2011
sometimes i really cannot stand myself. the thing is so obvious and even outsider also can see with both their eyes closed, i still can't do anything. i'm seriously like a tool, or even worse, Idiot.
i rather to be senseless, or cold-blood like what people said, but the word : NO, its just so hard for me to say it, i can always reject my own family members, say the no damn loud, but its come to other, i'm freaking out,Yes, freaking out. i can't even anticipate what might happen because i'm afraid of losing it.
Some people might think that : why are you so stupid, why are you so kind or whatever it is. But they didn't know that whatever i'm doing, its just my natural reflection, or my coward-self asked me to do so without asking my brain.
But never mind, cuz like what others said : scared what? what will u lose? Thats why i'm putting my armor on, and get ready to this. Life like this, if you didnt show that you are not happy, people would never know it.
I'm not really that happy or kind person as any of you think, i guess. I just don't like to make anything get uglier if i can do something to prevent it. I just like to let people think that : ya its all fine, even thought i'm the one who suffering the most.
But for this case, its too much, way too much until i felt violated, offended.
this will be the war.
freshly made lemonade
i rather to be senseless, or cold-blood like what people said, but the word : NO, its just so hard for me to say it, i can always reject my own family members, say the no damn loud, but its come to other, i'm freaking out,Yes, freaking out. i can't even anticipate what might happen because i'm afraid of losing it.
Some people might think that : why are you so stupid, why are you so kind or whatever it is. But they didn't know that whatever i'm doing, its just my natural reflection, or my coward-self asked me to do so without asking my brain.
But never mind, cuz like what others said : scared what? what will u lose? Thats why i'm putting my armor on, and get ready to this. Life like this, if you didnt show that you are not happy, people would never know it.
I'm not really that happy or kind person as any of you think, i guess. I just don't like to make anything get uglier if i can do something to prevent it. I just like to let people think that : ya its all fine, even thought i'm the one who suffering the most.
But for this case, its too much, way too much until i felt violated, offended.
this will be the war.
freshly made lemonade
Friday, April 8, 2011
Crappy mood.
Well, my post title means a lots, SERIOUSLY A lots.
Life aint getting better, in facts is getting worser. Friends, family, and Future sorta driving me nut, i wonder is that the RIGHT CHOICE for choosing engineering as my future career path. I'm not sure what i'm going to work as after i graduate from Advanced Diploma. Headaches. But i'm not going to give up, i wasted for so long times, if i back off now mean that i waste so much time on Nothing, thats why no matters what, i'm gonna holding on.
Found out that some crappy shits happen around me,too much to be mentioned.
Putting on fake smiles in front of others is getting harder. Everytime i feel like just show then my No.0 facial expression = stoned. Thats definitely will be far easier that think so hard to crack a joke or whatever it is.
Didnt sleep since 8 April 2011 00:00, and now i can hardly think with this sleepy heavy head and messy hairstyle, not to forget the eyes that look so kesian.. and skrew it i can't even think anymore. Good day ya'll. have fun whatever you are doing OR going to do something.
Blur.
So Damn Blur.
Life aint getting better, in facts is getting worser. Friends, family, and Future sorta driving me nut, i wonder is that the RIGHT CHOICE for choosing engineering as my future career path. I'm not sure what i'm going to work as after i graduate from Advanced Diploma. Headaches. But i'm not going to give up, i wasted for so long times, if i back off now mean that i waste so much time on Nothing, thats why no matters what, i'm gonna holding on.
Found out that some crappy shits happen around me,too much to be mentioned.
Putting on fake smiles in front of others is getting harder. Everytime i feel like just show then my No.0 facial expression = stoned. Thats definitely will be far easier that think so hard to crack a joke or whatever it is.
Didnt sleep since 8 April 2011 00:00, and now i can hardly think with this sleepy heavy head and messy hairstyle, not to forget the eyes that look so kesian.. and skrew it i can't even think anymore. Good day ya'll. have fun whatever you are doing OR going to do something.
Blur.
So Damn Blur.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
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