OHHHH HOLY MAMA CRAP.

I SWEAR I WILL REVIVE U ONCE AGAIN MY RANDOM CRAP.

Muacks

hello

Hello my blog. It's been awhile. Anyways, life's good, gaining weights as usual, blame on my laziness once again.

perhaps i'm just feeling insecure, keep picking up fight and hurting him with words. Althou end up its settled but the wound i cause will remain there. i'm not surprise if he decided to leave.

maybe that's the reason why some of my friends think that i am better off single, as i take relationship too serious, i'm too demanding, and it's making me guilty.

It's been awhile since my last post.

life changed.

not longer single,

lost my best buddy,

some dramatic changes.

somehow still kinda stuck in that,

hopefully i can get over the heartache when the memories flash back.

i know that sometimes, something are meant to be gone in order to move on in our life,

well..

things definitely will getting better, i have faith in it.

:D

miss this girl badly

random crap of the month

i am 23 ady.

exam is coming.

screwed up my thesis.

screwed up my pencil box.

feeling weird.

life changed decision.

been wake up by mosquito every morning for past 3 days.

exam is coming.

Gotta redo my thesis.

headache.

freezing cold.

losing myself.

it's aint that good as i thought.

i scared i might screwed up my final.

i am 23.

TEEHEE

random crap of the day

i want to dye my hair to light brown
i want to get my healthy body back
i'm so sick of feverish me
stupid lecturer really didnt mark my attendance for me
i study for more than 5 hours today
i attend all the classes today
i make it for 8am lecture
i replace my Quality System tutorial today
Friday gonna be factory visit day
rushing back to Muar to interview my mum and dad
mum skrewed me cuz i stay up very late
mum ask me to drink more water cuz im coughing like mad
later class on 1pm and im still awake
gonna study in oldtown again tonight
i want to learn how to fly like those movies
i wish that suddenly my bank account have 100K, Ringgit malaysia duh
i think Ir. Wan made a good lecture's notes
i am bored.

some camwhore+ editted photo shit

Farewell :D

Me and Tian Hoo, im going to miss you :D

Jian Yea. my ex class rep. i always have this weird crush on him HAHAHA!

I WANT THIS!

Who said i took bad pic D:

Megatron, my bf.

me and the future audiologist :D

AND I WANT THIS.

Me and the guys :D

few of the guys in my life :)

10/6/2011

Thats right, i started my morning with this Marigold GoodMorning milk which DOESNT make me fresh at all.

my class was started on 8am, and i woke up on 730am, supposedly i can make it for the lecture but my blur moments is not long enuf, so i decided to slack at home until 845am then just leave to 9am lecture.

No doubt, i was late for that lecture, too. and i'm acting like a boss walk in there and my classmates were all like " wuaa why are you here blah blah blah..." damn blame it on ponteng too much and people feel surprise when see me in the morning class.

so after the class, we have 5hrs break, which usually i will back to home and sleep.. And today is a lil bit unusual, we spent like 20mins to discuss what to have for our brunch and decided to drive 15mins to Batu Caves. The food is awesome.

while we are heading to college to get my car so i can get some sleep in my house, my another friend call and told us that they will be bowling in Wangsa Walk, asked whether we want to join or what.. Nah, im not a bowling ball lover so i will just skip. Then, out of nowhere my friend suggested to watch movie.

Great, so we rush to Wangsa walk and buy the ticket for X-men First class. Nice movie, i hate the ending, why must all the good looking guy turn out to be bad guy? Urghh.

2hrs later, we rush back to college and attend the 1hr tutorial,hell yeah to the friday.

oh ya, i met up with my hometown friends and HAVE ANOTHER MOVIE. Kung Fu Panda.

thats why im so sleepy right now and i don't think i can finish the last 3 episode of Lie To Me season 2.. wait what am i typing now? i think im talking crap...

Forgive and Forget

ranting#2

Every morning i wish that i can look fresh as this.

Or perhaps like this, annoying but atleast still lookable.

But mostly thats how i sit and look like when after washing face and all, blur, and complaint why we have to get up from the lovely warm bed and go to college.

Or sometimes even worse, i go to school with this look.

argh! i hate school.

i started to feeling confused. like seriously.
its not the 1st time i think like this, in fact, this happen to me all the time, feeling confused, not sure what am i supposed to do.
i don't mean to be a loser or what, just that sometimes when shits happen i just want to run away, as far as i can, just for the sake to calm down, and think what am i supposed to do for next step. Life is tough, i will that i can go back to my baby times, just drink milk, laugh, play, cry and sleep and repeat the routine until i started to learn how to speak.
its normal for human for can't remember what's happen before 3 years old. but somehow i wish i still remember, so whenever i am sad i am down, i can remember and think back that i used to have this worry-less childhood, not that striving for the sake to get compliment from anyone.
Lately my life is seriously treated me badly, so bad i really don't know how i should react. all these shits seems settled but its not, and its come back to me again and again, i started to wondering is that my life want to see me fall? i really don't know.
I'm scared, seriously worry what will happen next, i'm not even sure that i can deal with it at all. Keep breathing is all i know for now.
just keep,
breathing.

aww my all time favourite keyboardist :D

talked to my lovely Vivian just now, figuring out something, which took me like one year and half to really understand.

im tired.

and i have this hugest crush on This Sunday Screamer, how? u bite me?

All the sudden.. i lost my interest on something, or let say, Someone.
perhaps its the sign or faith, thats i shouldn't holding any grudge, or unreachable hope.
setting myself free.
well, getting my life back aint bad thing at all.
hee.




bye. i liked you.

Massacre Conspiracy "Bloodless" (Album Version) Official Music Video

SERIOUSLY, u wont be regret if u listen to this.
its so awesome i almost cry i tell u!!
one of the best Malaysia Metal band.
with handsome vocalist of course :p


enjoy!
and dont jinz in ur pant.

and hell yeah im gonna see them this Sunday, are u jelly?

seriously laughing on what i wrote before this. haha. so stupid.

only if someone know how important is that for my life. only if they understand instead of saying that " stop being emo or what." if its so easy, why would i be sad? yes im being paranoid, thats who i am, thats what i been hiding all these years. i wish that i could really be those brightly shining girl. which im not. so i will just chill the fuck out and keep breathing. nothing can be worst now, i will just sit down, sleep and hope for another great day.
i just need to catch some breath after all the bad things happen on me.
its all gonna be alright, i believe in that, seriously, its has to be alright, dont ever fail me again, its not easy for me to get back my normal mood, they didnt know what i've been thru, so i will chill.
just chill.
just chill.

feel much better after sleep for long hours. and cry to sleep.
well, i think i better skip the rest of the classes for this week for the sake of healing myself. lol.
sore throat and flu always attack people while you are in ur weakest situation. just laugh it off. thats what i can do, thats only what i can do, for now.
better get more sleep before the bad mood strikes again, its always good that i can sleep over all the bad mood. if u get what i mean.