Last day of 2010

let me scare your shits out with my OMG-WTF-IS-THIS pic.

Thats right, today is 31st December 2010, 3:05am to be exact.Seriously i don't really feel any special, only that "oh shit im getting older damnit".

Well, age is just a number, the way you think and how you look like matters the most =)

2010 been a really awesome year for me, i'm finally graduated from diploma, and continue to further my studies in TARC. College's life aint that suck but still not good. All the assignments, midterm test, final exam and so on is sort of driving me nut, good thing this i always managed to handle it, Thanks God for that.

Had several car accidents in this year... 80% is not my fault but ya.. 20% is because of my reckless+ awesome+ kononya drift queen driving skill.

Family... everything is okay, i am glad that my mum finally have faith on me that i can do well in my studies, and my parents been really supportive when i said i want to continue my studies. Because before i finish my remain resit paper, i told them that i won't study anymore. haha. I love you Mummy and Daddy!! My 2nd sister is having her training in Taiwan Hospital and my 4th sis is currently in China to do her student exchange program, i miss you both =( For my eldest sis, i am glad she managed to get what she want, and she getting so WTF pretty and prettier kanasai. And my lil sis.. finish her PMR, well.. the results is not that good but still okay la. U better make sure you will put more efforts next time.

Knowing a lot of new friends this year.. and awesome classmates as well. =) Kirsten, Vivian and Jazz Si are always there for me when i need someone to talk to, and being really supportive friends =) Thanks God for let me knows u guys!

Thanks God that keeping my family safe and healthy.
Thanks God that protect me, my family and friends.
Thanks God that my both sisters who are study in other country is safe and happy.

Thanks to my family who always there for me whenever i need help, and never abandoned me although i done so many wrong and unforgivable thing.
Thanks to my family to take care of me for all these years.

Thanks to Kirsten, we been knowing each other for almost 5 years =) thanks for listening all my problems and craps when i need someone to complain.

Thanks to Vivian who always there for me when i'm in very bad mood, and thanks for being so understanding and caring. =)

Thanks to Jazz Si, kanasai, its been 10years oi!!! xD She always know what i am going to do next step or what am i going to say.

Thanks to my friends who offer their help whenever i need. I'm glad that i have you guys by my side.

Thanks to my cute classmates to mark my attendance for me muahahaha!

Happy 2011.=)

and yes, its 3:32am now.

2 more days then it will be the end of 2010. If the 2012 myth is real, thats mean we all have less than 2 years to live in this world.

Actually i'm having fever and flu right now, so whatever i write will make no sense, just like usual, but then will even worser than usual.

Just got my clothes from laundry, put on my pyjamas in 1226PM doesnt seem to be a good idea for me who gonna sitting exam in less than a week time. But yeah, i am sick, so i can do whatever i want. Honestly, i havent wash my hair since yesterday, and i also forgot to brush my teeth since i woke up like 2hrs ago. Flu virus starting to conquer my brain i guess.

Supposed to lepak with my friends. Too bad some unexpected thing happens.. R.I.P aunty.. Please continue to take care of him whenever you are.. I believe that you are now in a better place, stay with God.

Told my bestie that i'm kinda freaked out , well, blame it on my "waaaa-negative-thinking-max-mode-on" brain. I cant help myself but always think about negative thing, which always leads me to give up or quit whatever i'm doing now. Better dont take it in heart.. I know sometimes something can be happen so coincidently, and we cant do anything but only accept the realities.. But who know? is that possible its actually sign from God? That he is no good for me? Or i am no good for him? i don't know, i seriously don't know. But what the heck i think i better go with the flow, i won't force myself to give up until the day is here.. I dont know when it is but i sure my heart will lead me the way.. Its only Yay and Boo. haha.

Praying for the best for you, hope that you gonna be fine, so do i. Wish that all of us, including whoever reading this post, you got my best wishes. 2011 gonna be a real good year, trust me. =)

I dont Trust myself - John Mayer

"I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)"

No I'm not the man I used to be lately
See you met me at an interesting time
If my past is any sign of your future
You should be warned before I let you inside

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you

I will beg my way into your garden
I will break my way out when it rains
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you

Who do you love?
Girl I see through, through your love
Who do you love me or the thought of me? me or the thought of me?

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever gets you through through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you
I don't trust myself with loving you
I don't trust myself with loving you
I don't trust myself with loving you

John Mayer - In Repair

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new look upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in a park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unready
Oh i'm never really ready, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there

December 14.
supposed to go to study with my study group mate. Because of this bad feeling, decide to turn them down and rather to stay in home play L4D2. Well.. i can finish 1 game in less than 90minutes now, consider improve a lot isn't it?

Seriously confuse with what i am feeling now. But whatever, because it doesn't matter, because since the first day, i already expect what will be happen in this... i called it as journey because i don't know what is the best word to describe it. Told some of my friends about my feeling and everything, good thing they keep telling me to think positive, we won't know what will happen right? what i can do is keep my finger crossed and wish for the best.

Last week was like the rewards God has gave to me for liking someone for so long i guess HAHAHHAHA OMGWTHELL. But then good la, its good thing x)

Okay i am seriously dont know what else i can write.. or type... okay bye bye.

Review of 2010

woo. here the new layout for this dull plain stupid blog. Yeah i know, why i didnt use the black color background with those fancy shit float here and there.. BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO MAKE IT MAH.. and then this blog is like only me will read it, so whatever la.

Well, its December 2010 now.. 22 more days then it will come to the end, i will miss u 2010.
This year is kinda dramatic, for me.
January 2010 was start with awesome friends, celebrating the coming of 2010 in mamak store. Then final exam, and then one hell of big changes of my social circle.

February i was so so busy with baking cookies, all the last minute new year clothes shopping were sort of driving me crazeeee man.. Chinese New Year was awesome, i love to spend my time with my precious family members, although we were just sitting on the couch and playing PS2 for whole damm day, or just having the movie marathon, its fun. =) I love you my sisters! They wont come back for 2011 CNY, so i m not really looking forward for it.. =( i will miss the CNY shoes shopping with my 2nd sister and holding stack of the PS2 game walkthru moments with my 4th sister. I LOVE U BOTH! <3 <3

March, April was quite boring, nothing to mention about.. Oh, Keramat Durjana was the 2nd Metal gig i went in my whole life, and get to see Massacre Conspiracy and This Sunday.. cute vocalist and cute guitarist make the world better MUAHAHAHAHA! =) and finally get to sit into his car, which i never expect it would happen in my whole life.

May 2010 was like big life changing for me. I managed to finish my Diploma finally, and back to college again. I was so freaking stressful a week before the exam results release, and damm worry i have to be all alone in the class, good thing is i get to know some really good new friend =) Although now they still like to kacau me but what the heck =) And went to Ignite Fest with my favorite band Unexpected Mercy, everything was freaking fun and memorable, i love spending time with them, all the details i still remember until now. =) Zombie walking everything.

June was one hell of hectic month for me, busy to do the assignments and everything.. and having some emotional problem with myself.

July was suck. yeah i know is my birthday month, but my car had an accident and i was carless for few weeks. Have to rely on my friends for the transport and everything. Thanks God to let me have them as my friends, Thanks a lot =) other than that, that the month i had to rely on him to be my driver to go some place, and we did our first gossip talk on the way send me back. Thanks. And my convo was awesome! My eldest sister gave me 2 bouquet of my favourite flower and so do my classmate, i never expect they will come and not to say the flower! I love u guys! =) in fact i was too happy and cried that time.

August was.. boring and crazy. Finalize all the assignments, prepare for presentation urghhh!! And went to celebrate birthday with Audrey in Midvalley. I m so sorry cause didnt get the chances to celebrate birthday to my best-bestie Kirsten Hing. U know i love you dont you? And went to Petaling street for the 1st time during afternoon, damn freaking hot weather and i get tanned =/

September 2010 normal, sitting for my final and went to McD EVERYDAY. dare no to eat McD for few weeks mannn. And the funny thing is, i went to The Curve the day before my Mathematics exam, thanks God i passed with flying color muahahaha!!

October was one of the memorable month for me. Went to several gig and also An Honest Mistake album showcase. Had a lot of fun that day ;)

November was boring and headache with the freaking assignments. Nothing much to mention. oh yeah, i got my new laptop woopie!!! xD

December.. is a month of confusing, seriously confusing. My mood is like riding on the roller coaster, up and down, here and there. False alarm, assignments deadline.. I hope this month will getting better, seriously =)

two more days will be a year since i first met u. Thats why i keep counting down in my facebook, but i bet u dont remember anymore so screw it HAHAHAHA. =)

Unexpected Trip, basically we just spent our time in McD to try to finish up the CAE assignment, its suck, i know.

His-story.

if i know that she was back in Malaysia, i will go to stalk her like mad.
if i know that she was in Kuala Lumpur, i swear i will go wherever she go, and give her a slap on her face.

Well, maybe thats a sign to moving on and hold no grudge on it anymore. Thats the way it should go, right?
No more heartache, what i left is only Questions. Lots of Question.

I wish the best of u and your almost 3yrs girlfriend, i hope she wont dump by you like how u dumped me muahaha.

One day, i swear that i will go the NZ to find u and let you know how RUGI you was, you dont deserve me and i deserve better =) Thanks for the heartache and the aftermath you give to me since 2008, i am letting it go, fully, and finally.

Horray.

Good Luck, Leonard Goh.

( damn why the hell i write a post like this HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!! )