betapa sukarnya kepada saya untuk cintai kamu,
betapa petihnya sakit hati yang diberi oleh kamu kepada ku.

Kamu tidak tahu apa yang saya alami sepanjang masa ni sejak saya suka mu, terpaksalah saya berpura-pura senyum dan gembira semasa awak disisi ku, tetapi dalam hatiku, saya faham awak tetap tiada hati sama ku..

Tidak pasti saya harus terus suka awak ataupun cuba sedaya upaya untuk lupakan mu, lepasi mu. Apa yang saya pasti ialah saya tetap tidak menyesal kerana telah cinta mu begitu lama.

saya sayang padamu, adakan anda tahu?

My Dream Guy

Oh, since today is kinda cold,raining, nose blocked, headache, emo day, so i want to say something about my kinda dream guy, at least its can make me feel better, i guess, HAHAHAHA!!

1. I wish he can go grocery shopping with me =3

2. I seriously dont mind if he cant spent 24/7 with me, in fact, i do think that it will be better if we can have our own time, own space. If seeing each other everyday will make the relationship getting boring, and distance make thing better. xD

3. Must accept who i really am, please don't try to turn me to someone else, because i am who i am, if he cant accept who i am, for what we become lover right?

4. I don't want luxury present from him, but i wish at least he can remember what i dont like, what i like.

5. all my ex-bf cant remember my full name, and they dont really know how to write my Chinese name, so please, please learn how to write my Chinese name. =)

6. Sometime i tend to become emotional and feeling insecure, and i wish he can try or do something to comfort me, im not asking much, a hug,a kiss, a sweet message will be enough.

7. and then, i'm not really tough and healthy as other think i am, please be there when i am not feeling well and take care of me if can.

8. I wish that we can at least spend our weekends together, shopping, movie, lunch or dinner, or maybe just stay in home or somewhere else to do our own work together. =)

9. Please, don't say any bad thing about my family or what, i cant accept that someone i love to criticize or complaint about my family, because i love them as much as i love you, so please, try to love them like how u love your family.

10. Remember what you've promise.

11. Althou i really dont mind that we cant seeing each other everyday, msn or whatever it is, but please, at least text me when u leaving to somewhere, when u busy or when u about to sleep. I dont want to worry about you.

okay now i am getting emo because i am still single HAHAHAHAHAHA.

confuse#1

Have to simply make a title or else I can't post my blog post, thanks to the stupid iPhone application u can go and shuck my arse. Oh well, here's just another confession, or random shit. It's almost 1 freaking year since I started to like him. Damm funny lor how the heck I can like someone for so long right? Somemore he is like, oh damn I know him quite well and know what kinda guy he is, and his weak points blah blah blah. And I've been trying my best to let this shit go away and moving on, but still I can't do that. Is it me not trying hard enough or what eh? Idk. Tell me if u like me, or tell me if u are seeing someone, or hv a crush on someone else, it definitely won't make me feel better but at least I would know that I should give up. False alarm bee boo bee boo.

Rant#1

I'm just a normal human being who need someone to care. I'm not asking what, but i just don't understand why when I'm in need, no one willing to give me their hand while I do whatever I can when they need me? Ha. But it's okay, I'm doing fine, I'm strong and tough enuf to take care myself. Being caring and helpful is not a bad thing after all, i born to be a good ppl, with bad mouth hahaha xD

Moving On =)

When the time is here, no matter how hard you try, how many effort you put in, it all seem like useless.
Who to blame? you can only said that everything come out at the wrong timing, wrong place, wrong situation.
What you can do is promise that you wont lose yourself, be who you are. Dont sink inside the soreness and heartache.

P/s : nah i aint talking about my crush, its just some thought. i still like him like mad tu. =)